Monday 26 May 2014

SAYING GOODBYE IS THE HARDEST THING TO DO

It's been a while since my last post and my apologies for neglecting this blog. The truth is, I have been dealing with some personal issues.  I remember expressing my worry that I wasn't ready mentally or physically for the thought of losing our loved ones.  At that point of time, my father was hospitalised.  Syukur my dad seems to be okay now. 

Ready or not, we have to face it when time comes to say goodbye, it cannot be delayed and we can't cheat DEATH.
Sooner or later everyone dies. No one is immortal and  we will have to go to our final destination.
To Allah we belong and to Him is our return.

Unfortunately my brother lost his battle for life and passed away on 7th September 2013. He has suffered a lot and hospital has been like his second home. I remember being told at one time he vomitted a  bucket of blood and we suspected he was under a black magic curse (wallahualam) .
Even if it is true I hope the person who did it to my late brother would be able to repent to God Almighty and feels regret for what he did to my late brother. My brother has left behind a wife and young children; 3 sons and 2 daughters.

 Of course with his passing, it has a big impact on me, losing him just like losing my best friend.   I remember whenever he wanted to seek for an opinion or wanted to express something, he would share it with me instead of the rest of our siblings although we lived far apart from each other.  I still remember our last conversation via facebook chat.  Every now and then, I'd constantly check and re-read that conversation thru FB msg inbox especially whenever I miss him.

Not long after my brother's passing, my grandma passed away on 7 February 2014 due to old age and she passed away at the age of 97 years old.  Of course I have a fond memory with her although I'm not very close to my grandma compare to one of my sisters because she has been raised by her.

Now both my brother and my grandma have left us to return to Allah.
Rest in Peace my brother Abdul Rahman, my late maternal & paternal grandparents

AL-FATIHAH