Tuesday, 25 August 2015


You’re just like a clear water river
that soothe the warm breeze during summer
the sound, the flow that dies down the heat
but still can’t slowdown my heartbeat
whenever  you are near
thus I keep my distance because I’m in fear

At nights you are like the brightest star
guess I will be just fine staring at you from afar
impossible to keep
that I wish to pick
because you’re  too perfect and too bold
sometimes I wonder if  I ever had a chance to hold

You’re just like a deep blue ocean
 while the wave remains strong and firm
ocean quest you're so valuable
here I am too afraid of drowning  in my emotions
to fight the feeling I am so vulnerable
guess I have to deal on my own terms

You are the sweetest dream  I’ve ever dreamt
that  I don’t want to miss a thing
I love every bits and pieces of you
all the wonders of you...
therefore I chose to love you in silence
for in silence I find no rejection


p/s This poem is especially dedicated to someone
you're just like a fine crystal glass, I know that I can't keep but nice to look at :)

Tuesday, 1 July 2014

Salam Ramadhan Almubarak 
to all my muslim readers. 
I humbly seek your forgiveness 
for all my faults, and all the wrongs 
that I have done inadvertently, 
unknowingly to any of the readers thru my writings. 
Let us submit to Allah almighty 
during this holy month of Ramadhan and 
let just hope that our deeds during this month 
will be blessed by Allah SWT and 
may Allah SWT give us his blessings 
for us to continue with our fasting. 
Happy fasting everyone :)

Sunday, 22 June 2014


I found one blog  just recently Click Here  and I was surprised that my niece's name has been mentioned as one of 'UGLY MALAYSIANS" and I was 2 years too late to know the existence of such blog with that kind of topic merely because she was one of the New York Marathon participants that has been cancelled due to Superstorm Sandy otherwise I would give my response immediately to tell them the real situation that has been told by my niece, Azuria Camalia Kamel.

I found the context of summary judgement is simply unfair - disputed issues of fact. It's super easy to criticize when you are not the one facing the difficulties and when you did not overcome the whole situation and I can't imagine the one who blogged about it is an old man who has a few grandchildren and my niece could be considered as his grandchild too. I wonder how he feels when things like that happen to his grandchildren, would he call them 'ugly malaysians'? Would he allow his grandchildren be called as 'moron'? Would he consider to put himself into other people's shoes? Some people love to criticize things that never happen to them.

What irks me the thought that she was sponsored by our government when the fact that she used her own money for the NY trip and marathon fee. Some of the commenters even called my niece and those marathon participants as 'Moron'. Excuse me, as a Chemical Engineer and graduated from one of top ten universities in the world, Imperial College London, I don't think she deserves to be called moron, same goes to the rest of the participants who come from good education background.

Those 7 participants are mostly young professional people who are very committed with their work. Some of them are working for a prestige oil & gas companies and as far as in Iraq. I don't want to give a lengthy explanation how chaotic is in Iraq because I believe everyone knows the condition. Do you think it easy for them to squeeze themselves into the schedule when the initial plan has been cancelled? Unless if you are a grandpa  who probably a pensioner , you can easily fix your own schedule while they have to get approval from their bosses for their leave application so please do not simply make your own judgement by calling them 'Ugly Malaysian' or 'Moron'.

By the way incase some people are curious whether or not these '7 ugly Malaysians" ever making any effort to volunteer as stated by Ms. Deborah Augustin, YES THEY DID!

Incase if you are curious too, whether my niece would be 'serik' for what had happened before? The Answer is "NO!" ....As an avid marathoner,  this year will be her second participation for NY Marathon.

* Serik = Daunt/Discourage

Monday, 26 May 2014


It's been a while since my last post and my apologies for neglecting this blog. The truth is, I have been dealing with some personal issues.  I remember expressing my worry that I wasn't ready mentally or physically for the thought of losing our loved ones.  At that point of time, my father was hospitalised.  Syukur my dad seems to be okay now. 

Ready or not, we have to face it when time comes to say goodbye, it cannot be delayed and we can't cheat DEATH.
Sooner or later everyone dies. No one is immortal and  we will have to go to our final destination.
To Allah we belong and to Him is our return.

Unfortunately my brother lost his battle for life and passed away on 7th September 2013. He has suffered a lot and hospital has been like his second home. I remember being told at one time he vomitted a  bucket of blood and we suspected he was under a black magic curse (wallahualam) .
Even if it is true I hope the person who did it to my late brother would be able to repent to God Almighty and feels regret for what he did to my late brother. My brother has left behind a wife and young children; 3 sons and 2 daughters.

 Of course with his passing, it has a big impact on me, losing him just like losing my best friend.   I remember whenever he wanted to seek for an opinion or wanted to express something, he would share it with me instead of the rest of our siblings although we lived far apart from each other.  I still remember our last conversation via facebook chat.  Every now and then, I'd constantly check and re-read that conversation thru FB msg inbox especially whenever I miss him.

Not long after my brother's passing, my grandma passed away on 7 February 2014 due to old age and she passed away at the age of 97 years old.  Of course I have a fond memory with her although I'm not very close to my grandma compare to one of my sisters because she has been raised by her.

Now both my brother and my grandma have left us to return to Allah.
Rest in Peace my brother Abdul Rahman, my late maternal & paternal grandparents


Friday, 16 August 2013


Maybe I am a little too late to wish everyone "Selamat Hari Raya" but hey it's still Syawal month :)

To all my muslim readers/friends/relatives I would like to take this opportunity to wish everyone a blessed Hari Raya with your loved ones. Enjoy the celebration :)

I'd also like to apologize for any mistake...any wrongdoing... if  you feel offended with my actions or writings or if I ever hurt someone intentionally or unintentionally...once again I apologize for any inconvenience caused on my part.

Salam Aidil Fitri Maaf Zahir & Batin from me and my family!

Sunday, 14 July 2013

Salam Ramadhan

Hello peeps

I know that we have been fasting for almost a week now and I hope it's not too late for me  to take this opportunity to wish my muslim friends and relatives a blessed Ramadhan.

Ramadhan is a holy month for the muslims. The ninth month of Islamic calendar. It is a time for spiritual purification achieved thru fasting, self sacrifice and prayers. It is also a time to test our patience, to reflect ourself on our actions in order to make things right for our self improvement. 

Fasting is religious obligation that is to be followed by muslims at every cost.  The main purpose of fasting is to make people like us who are fortunate enough to live a better life to be aware of the hardships of those people who have nothing to eat and are very poor. It is about time to take care of them, help them in time of difficulty to minimize their hardships by doing more 'sedeqah' in this holy month of Ramadhan.  Even in Al-Quran, it is mentioned that in this month the gates of heaven are opened and the gates of hellfire are closed. By doing good deeds, In Shaa Allah we will be rewarded 'Pahala' by Allah almighty. 
(In our belief, the more pahala we have, the better chances to get to heaven as long as we do the deed with pure & correct intention).
The main purpose behind this month is to make people aware of the hardships of the people who have nothing to eat and are poor. - See more at: http://muslim-academy.com/why-is-ramadan-so-important-and-significant-for-muslims/#sthash.E3ZPyoVT.dpuf

I wish my fellow muslim friends/relatives to take advantage of this holy month of Ramadhan for "Muhasabah Diri" and that is to work on our own inner peace. 

I know some of us are unable to distinguish between the needs and luxuries hence we engage in wasteful spending. Please try to avoid spending on unnecessary thing for instance, when comes to Iftar we might end up with a pile-up variety of food that we cannot fully consume and then throw them away in the garbage bin. What a waste!!!Why don't we share our food with the poor? 

Why it is so hard for us to give some money to the needy but instead we don't mind wasting our money on a buffet dinner at five-star hotel for iftar that's overly priced and yet we can't finish eating all the food?

This is about time to reflect our actions and make things right!

Once again, Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak :)

Tuesday, 18 June 2013


Now I'm presenting you a story of betrayal of friendship 
Hang Tuah vs Hang Jebat
[from my own point of view]

I believe every Malaysian knows the story of Hang Tuah.  For those who have no idea who's Hang Tuah, you can browse here
and Hang Jebat here

 "Takkan Melayu Hilang di Dunia"
~ by The legendary Malay Warrior, Hang Tuah.
[The famous quote of Hang Tuah]
Despite loving Hang Tuah's quote, I'd always considered Hang Jebat as "My Real Hero" while others might have potrayed him as a traitor to the king , as what we have been taught in History Lesson during high school.  I have my own reason to why I chosed him as my hero, infact my SUPERHERO.

All this while we followed the book, we followed exactly what we learnt from the history, the story that has been passed on from one generation to another generation.  We have been bombarded with bias informations about Hang Jebat.  He has been potrayed in such a way that he was a bad guy :(

To me, he was given an unfair judgement by the historians. Isn't that there's a good and bad in everyone? why should we highlight the bad sides of him and vanish the good ones?

Without any prejudice, I'd like to see him from different perspective, from my own point of view. I’d like to explore the good sides of him and I’m just pointing out the truth that has never been told.

Hang Jebat must have known the true meaning of Friendship for he taught others its meaning, the value of friendship and loyalty of a friend and that the quality of one true friend to the extend that his willingness to sacrifice himself in the hands of his best friend, Hang Tuah indeed really touched my heart.  Similarly to the story of three musketeers, he kept his vow ~ one for all and all for one!

While Hang Tuah on the other hand,  has taught us all, a sense of loyalty to our king but does it make any sense if we obey to one cruel ruler? Should we sacrifice our friendship for the sake of others especially to the person who didn't serve justice on us accordingly? Should we betray the person who stood by our side and would do anything to fight for our own rights?

 A King who has made an order to kill Hang Tuah simply because he has falsely been accused of committing  adultery without investigating whether he was guilty or not guilty.  He was given an unfair trial by the king to begin with. Why would he obey to the one who wanted him to die in the first place?

 If he hasn’t been kept alive secretly by Datuk Bendahara, the history would have been different. Hang Jebat wouldn’t be the one who was killed & betrayed by his own best friend and I wouldn’t have known the true meaning of friendship that I learnt from my hero. Hang Jebat was infact a symbol of truth and justice.

We can’t change the history but we still can change our perception and may peace be upon the two of them..Aamiin.